My 2015: Back To Loving ME!
Here I am again reflecting on the year—smiling, fully conscious of the joy I have in my heart as memories flood my thoughts. I entered the year with a list of goals AND A PLAN. First, however, I knew I needed to commit to being whole. I was finally tired of holding myself back. I had reached the point within my self where I had intentionally settled on uncompromisingly growing into my best self. To do this, I had to return to the basics. In 2015 I returned to loving me and it feels oh so great!
Have you ever been afraid to be great? I have. Thank God those days are over! How can I say that I want all of the blessings God has for me and then await them with closed hands? It seems silly now, but it took a while for me to see my self. I wonder how many people are like how I was, wanting better but not wanting greatness. (Is that you?) How many people are denying their uniquely-made brilliance and settling for mediocre because that is now the accepted norm? Guess what, we are not normal! We are supernormal! We are exceptional!
As I go forth in claiming the promises God has given me, I do so in humility. This is a good thing as I have discovered the difference between being humble and having low self-esteem. Oh, how fine that line can be, especially in a world where lowering the esteem of another seems to be a sport. (Why does “Hunger Games” come to mind?) Loving your self, however, is the counter to the world’s punch. Admittedly, I could not love myself without growing closer to God. It is a continuous process. How exciting!
About ten years ago or so, a woman told me that the Lord is going to do great things in my life but I would have to learn humility first. I remember this like it was yesterday because her words confused me. I thought, “Who is this lady? She has me all wrong. I am already humble.” Although I was woolly, I knew she was prophesying to me.
Had I known then what the lesson plan looked like for me to learn “humility”, I probably would have said, “Never mind.” I may not have cried out for God to bless my life in ways only He could. I may have settled. Sometimes, maybe more often than we care to realize, the blessing is in not knowing. His ways are not our ways.
Having gone through the coursework and passing the test, I have now invested in the blessings. They are already a part of me. They have always been. I just needed to return to the basics to locate them. I just needed to love me, my humble self. The world offers many temptations to that which it defines as “success”. Humility provides balance. Yes, “balance”–something to remain upright and steady. Won’t He do it!?!?